Silence..

Silence...!

Ever heard the voice of silence.. Well I certainly wish to hear the voice of silence as I firmly belief it has a language, language that is unknown to most of us. I don't know how easy or how difficult this language is but sitting with resting my back on couch I am thinking just about it. Silence is what I can never explain it has multi-definitions very from one to another. I feel its just like love, no body can actually explain silence to anyone or can they?
Life has given me I guess more then I deserved but I belong to a group of people who are happy with what they have but there eyes are focused on what's coming next. Though I believe I don't have hunger of money, fame or all but I believe we all enjoy if we ever able to get them but I prefer back stage as its peaceful, calm and silent. Sometimes this silence hurts me but most of the time I enjoy it alot.

Sometimes I think,
I am nobody but a,
Lost soul,
Embolden by my loved ones who,
Now and then force me to live,
Comfort me with a acceptance though,
Eagre of loss still is with me..

-illusiOn~

Fool's Day!

FOOL'S DAY!

It was late summer's night, when I opened my eyes after a bad dream. I checked my clock it was 3:15 a.m this means I had 4 hours more to sleep. I drink a glass a of water as I felt a little thirsty and then I lied in my bed again closing my eyes reciting quaranic verses. Just then I felt vibration of my cell-phone.I checked it was ' Ehsan calling.. ' blinking, I picked his call up;

' Hello ' My voice was a bit heavy I could hear it..
' Hey dearie! Why up so late? ' I was about to ask the same..
' You called to ask this.. Well dunno why I am up guess had a bad dream.. Why you are up? doing assignment? ' He always liked my way of asking so many things in just one sentence..
' Was.. yeah was a bit with this and that with assignment to.. still its left .. forget it.. I called to.. I wanted to say something.. ' I was hearing him but guess was not listening to him.. when he stopped i had to ask..
' Err.. whats that ,, tell go on ' I asked him..
' Listen you wont mind na.. I mean whatever I am gonna say you wont take it wrong.. Our relation wont be effected by it.. right na..' ( What he was up to?) I was unaware of what he was talking about but got worried on this disturb tone of his preamble start..
' You are OK Ehsan? ' I asked .. though my tone was not at all caring...
' Well i wanted to say.. ' He was stopped again.. God What was wrong with him..
' Ehsan if you are willing to say it then you better do it now.. else I am going to bed.. ' I touched the limit of rudeness this time as I was damn sleepy..
' Okay! Here I go.. I .. ! ' He left in the middle again...

God! This was surely the limit I ended the call.. Was turning my cell off when it ringed again.. He was calling again so had to pick up..

' Baby at least listen to.. ' He said in a sweet cuddling voice.
' I will listen if you just say what you want to instead of prefacing .. ' I was hell pissed off.. What the hell he was up to..
' I..' He was about to say anything just before that I felt I should warn him once and for all before he mess with things again.
' Dare you leave things in between now.. Say what you want too as after that I need to sleep.. '
' I just wanted to re assure you that I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU and ERRRRR I mean.. I am Sorry I disturbed you ' He was quite right after saying these lines , but now me was at peace. Its so good listening these magical words from him full of emotions and love..
' I love you too.. now go to bed and sleep. See you tomorrow.. okay bye' I hung up the call.. Took my wallet out and looked his photo ( I love you) I whispered..

Its 4:00 a.m and I am still up. Tomorrow is !st of April and I planned with my friends that I will fool her. I planned I will tell her that I want to break my relation off with her but when she picked up the call and I heard her heavy voice full with sleep I don't know why I stopped. Something trembled inside me, something stopped me saying what I meant too. Each time I started a sentence something in my forced to stop and it made her angry.. I wanted to say what I planned but then only her picture came into my mind.. She in her night suit with cell-phone in her hand near her ear and tears fallen from her beautiful eyes. And this image of hers made me stop every time. I couldn't bare her crying all because of me. So I decided I wont tell her but then only she got pissed off and ended the call. The devil in me urged me to give it a try again, who knows this time my planned could be success. And I called her she was hell pissed off, angry with me and I opened my mouth but instead of saying what I planned I said what I shouldn't. I told her six magical words which she loved to hear from me in my voice the most. I told her that I LOVE HER & I MISS HER. Her tone was off a sudden changed, it was now soften and full of emotions. She returned me my words and ended the call. Was my love for her was that strong that I couldn't bear even image of her with tears in her eyes, YES I LOVE HER VERY MUCH.. SO MUCH.... =)

- illusiOn~

P.S( All is fiction.. I hope you guys will like it)

My Darling Witch!

I met her down the hall side of the famous mall.. She was dressed in pink top and baby pink pant, as beautiful as she always looked holding my breath for a long time. My friend shaked me and broke her magic which took me away from this world, I was unable to see anything but her, i couldn't smell anything but smell of her, she fortifies me . I gave him a bad look as he messed everything. We both passed each other me lowering my eyes watching white beautiful feets passing away, Ahh she was definitely a witch I know. My friend took me to the new cafe which was opened few days back, I saw her here as well something was either wrong with my vision or it was a coincidence. My hands trembled as i gave my order. She was sitting in the left row this means right in front of me, though i tried not to look her but i cant help gazing her. They say girls have a 7Th sense as well which notices every sight, then why she cant? Or she was showing that she isn't noticing. Whatever the reality was I was fallen love with her the more I see, the deeper i fell. After paying bill as we left i turned to look her once before I leave but she was no where the table was empty and there I listen a voice..
' Excuse me! ' There she was so closed to me. Fortifying me again I wanted to hold her tight but then only my friend whispered
' You are in her way ! WAKE UP ' I with opened mouth gave her space, she smiled while passing ( uff God she is beautiful).
' Thank you! ' I felt as if she was reading my mind she was thanking me because I complimented her but how come she knew it? She knew magic?
With empty head I walked towards the cinema watching my friends with moving lips but I was hearing nothing. Settling down in our seats I looked around ( Guess what? she was sitting next to empty seat I left for my friend, who was almost hanging on gallery. I quickly changed my seat left mine for him, grabbing his, showing my famous indifference nature. It was a damn horror movie ;) and you know the good part was? each time they showed a full-blood scene she hold my hand for comfort. Till the time we came out of cinema we were good friends..

I closed the diary as I heard the sound of slamming doors and she was here. She came closed to me I hold her tight, moving my hands slowly on her back.
' I missed you! ' she whispered
I moved apart gazing her lips and then kissing her with craze. I deepen the kiss, my hand holding her from waist. After several minutes when we broke apart we hugged each other and i whispered in her ear
' My darling witch '

-illusiOn~