MulaQaat ! (I)

"hum pphir milain ge.. ""magar suno to.."
"nahin phir kabhi sahi aj nahin jaldi hai"
"par..""par.. woh hotay to tumhain bhi ura le jati par hain he nahin"
"meri baat to suno.."
"kal suno gi aj waqt khatum hoa"
"kal?"
"han .. kal yaheen milna.."
Wo roz yehi to karti thi .. har bar yehi hota tha mujhe bura bhi lagta tha magar kia kiya ja sakta hai us say milna bhi zaroori tha. Koi or ye dekh le to yaqen na kare k ye mein keh rahi hon mein.. jo logon mein na jane kia kia mashoor hon han mein .. mein uski sari naaz bardariyan bardasht karti hon KIUN? kiun k wo mujh se kuch nahin pochti , mujhe kuraidti naahin .. Anjaane mein meray kisi zakhum ko hara nahin karti bas ati hai cheekhti hoi kabhi hansti hoi or kabhi chotay bachon ki tarhan roti hoi.. Usay mujhe se chota ban'na acha to nahin lagta tha magar wo tajarbay ki bhati mein he nahin umr mein bhi mujh se kuch choti hi thi go k asal umr usnay mujh kabhi nahin batai par mera andaza hai .. :) roz ki tarhan wo kal phir mujhe milegi najany kab tak wo milegi shyed tab tak jabtak ussay koi dost nahin mil jata (hum ik dosray ko dost nahin mantay) wo kehti hai waqt ne usay ik acha dost sabit kabhi nahin kia so.. hum dost nahin ban saktay. Usay najane kia kia ghalat fehmiyan thi.. ussay lagta tha ke mein bohat aqal mand hon isiliye chup rehti hon .. jab k mein to.. shayed lafz bolna bhool gayi hon jabhi chup hon ussey pata nahin k main chup hon kiun k meray ander bohat khamoshi hai.. Usay dost achay lagtay hain aisa nahin k uske dost hain he nahin magar wo yehi kehti hai ya shyed wo uski dosti k may'ar par pura nahin utartay hi nahin honge ye bhi hosakta hai wo he unko na samjh pati ho .. mein hameesha is "HO SAKTA" or "SHAYED" mein phansi rehti hon or wo.. wo itnay yaqeen se kehti hai jo kehna chahti hai k uski baaton main mojood yaqeen pr yaqeen karnay ko jee chahta hai.. Uske pass masail or shikayat ka ambar laga rehta hai jab mein uske samnay ye kehti hon to wo palat kar tunak kar kehti hai
" Fursat milegi to inahin dil k daftar mein saja dongi magar jab fursat milegi tab"
"fursat mili or tm bhool gayeen to?"
"to kia? tum ho na yaad dilanay k liye.."
"mein kia isliye hon?"
"to kis liye ho?"
"is kam k liye hargiz nahin hon"
"oho.. msroof bandi ko to dekho"
"shaksiyat b ap keh saktin theen"
"han han wohi nasihat bibi"Mein jab ussay kuch samjhati wo yunhi karti thi kabhi mujhe nsihat bibi kehti kabhi aflatoon kabhi kuch kabhi kuch or jab mein kuch nahin kehti thi tab halke se meray kan mein kehti..
"Tumhari sab se buri baat yehi hai k tum dil ko zaban se rabta nahin karne deteen"
"matlab?"
"Tum sooch k batao k akhri bar kab kisi ko palat kar kuch kaha tum ne jb kisi ne meri tarhan tumhain tang kia? sooch k batao"
"phr sochnay do"
Wo samnay khari thi or main soochne sochne mein najane kitnay kos peechay chali gayi thi.. kuch dar thay jinahin mein ik bar phir kholany lagi thi k usnay mujhe phir jagaya.."Aye..l mein ja rahi hon kal milain ge..""magar..""KAL .. kal milain ge"wo kabhi alvida bhi nahin kehti thi na hi mujhe kehnay deti thi usay kabhi "GOOD-BYE'S" achay nahin lagtay thay or mujhe .. sirf ye kam achay se karna ata tha...


To Be Continued..