No-sense = nonsense!

saadi gali bhul k vi aya kro ji
sajna nu enna na satya kro ji
kadi saadi gali bhul k vi aya kro

and it kept on going in my ears while I finish my cup of milk and head to bed. High volume. Sometimes I hate this world well, only sometimes as rest of the times world is hating me!!!

- UnhinGed`

Exiled ~

I feel being deported from land of LOVE, HOPE & PEACE. I don't know how many of you feel the same but things getting rough and tough after each passing days and its not the future I am afraid off but the inner me. Someone on whom I was dependent. Yes 2012 exhausted me, tore me apart but what to expect from 2013. I am like a shaken building who is standing still, standing strong but who knows from inside its rotten. Penning it all down seems impossible yet talking about it insufferable. New year was best for me, brought me hopes, chills and happiness but as I came back to home it was like I left something of me back there. Who said you fallen love with humans only. I was in heaven for 10 days and who knew I will be brought back alive on my feet happily from heaven. Call me back ! I cant stand here I cant live here not now, never again. Not after I took breath in heaven not for a sec but for days. I cant help humming ‘KHUDA ZAMEEN SE GAYA NAHEEN HAI’ because I know where I could feel my LORD…… I just cant wait to go back !!

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Thought#12 paragraph#3!!

… And we are being used and we use people as much as we can. The core possibility of end of relationship is either excessive use of relation or may be no use of relation at all? Thought floats in brain or does anyone of them sinks even?? Loads of questions, unwanted thoughts, irritation inside. No place to go, no one to confront. I want death to come and free, spare me and let me go towards the real life. 

Who is big?

I am the smallest in family. All of them are big and they are always ready to recall that they are larger then me. I have 3 bhai and 1 appa. I love amma papa they let me use cell phone bhai and appa never let me. They think they know about laptop but they don’t know, I know about the password. They think little I think big so who is big? we sleep in one room so I know big and sab (everything). I know appa read novel chup chup k in course book I know big bhai tells sab kuch sotay way. 2 walay bhai 1 walay ka gel use in washroom raat ko chup chup k and take pictures. 3 walay bhai pee in his bed and change and subah ko say I did it. I know sab they dont knwo k I know so who is big?




P.S (all is work of fiction)

Me aur Barish <3

Me aur barish akele thay. Asma’n pe wo jalwafigan thi aur zamen par main jalwagar. Har ik khush tha aur me, me muntazir. Suna tha main ne k ye barish jumood ka hai ayi qatl karne, umeed ka phir diya jalanay. Thakan zada har ik matti k na-khuda ki piyas bujhanay, magar hoa to kuch ye mukhtalif hai. Jo dikhtee’n hun nazar utha kar to tamam matti hai pani paani aur jo nazar jhukaon to manzar bilkul he mukhtalif hai. Me pyas apni bhuja to lun par zameen e dil par ye khoo’n ki lariyan abhi bhi halke halke sisak raheen hain.  Ye dheere dheere machal raheen hain, mujhe aur barish ko tak rahi hain…

- unhinGed ~

Mushkil batain!

Amma kehti theen jhoot naheen bolte. Main ne poocha bhi ‘Amma! jhoot kia hota hai’. Kehnay lageen ‘Jiska wajood ho he na wo jhoot hai’, bas tab se aj tak main yaqeen o be yaqeeni k kaifiyat main dolte hoay zindagi naam k is bhayanak khooni samandar me hr ati jati lehron k saath dol ri hun. Amma ghalat to kehteen nahi theen par jo wo kehti theen wto aj hai he naheen mojood. Wo kehti theen ‘hum sab k oper bhi koi hai jo dekhayi naheen deta par hai’, magar yahan to har koi apne ap main KHUDA hai. Unhon ne sekhaya tha ‘Dost saath rahain na rahain dosti saath rehti hai’, par amma sach dosti hoi ya jhoot dost?
Jab hath main chot ayi thi tab patti karte hoay amma ne kaha tha ‘nazar anay walay zakhmon se gheray wo ghao hotay hain jo dekhte naheen’, to unki patti kiun naheen karta koi? Log jo dekhte hain, jo sunte hain wohi to wo mante naheen. To kia jhoot wo hai jo nazar naheen ata ya sach wo hai jo zahir hai…  Shayed Amma he mushkil batain karti theen…

Yak-tarfa (One sided)

Koi tum se bhi, ab! agar poochay to tum bhi keh dena, ye sab rishtay ajab he hain. Sab he ke rang niralay hain. Koi ehsaas ki manind hameesha saath rehta hai, koi chand ki manind bdli me chupta phir nikalta hai, koi phol ke jaise nazakat se sanwarta hai or koi kaanch ke jaise hameesha chubhta rehta hai. Ye sab rishta alag se hain sab he k andaz juda se hain. Magar yeh sab yaak-tarfa rishte hain. Mein ne sari umr yeh apni inhe soochon me guzari hai, taluq yak-tarfa naheen hotay. Ye dastoor he naheen inka, magar ab jo inko jiya hai to samjh me agaya ab ye k sab kuch he hum se hain. Han bas fark itna hai hai k jisse taluq ho uski ummeed ka mehwar bhi hum he hojate hain. Sab he lafz, sab he batain, sab he rasmain, sab he rang tum se he rehtay hain. Koi roothe tu hum chootay ki tafseer ban jana, wo na bolay to gum sum tasveer ban jana, bhala kahan ki yeh sharafat hai?? Kia ye mohabbat hai, ye ibadat hai…

- UnhinGed ~