To God, With Love ! - ( From The Dark Tunnel )

And then after so many days of mistrust and disbelief I finally decide to write to God. You must be thinking how fool I was then did I ask you think or tell me what you are thinking . I sat down on top most roof constellate with stars , moon observing me and I wrote down;

To Allah!

I don't know but I am very dishearten  by you, help me gaining my faith back. I don't know why all this happened but it did and I am not liking it at all now its your responsibility to make feel better instead of living it on time to heal me. I am yours and this is the only reason I am writing this letter to you. I know people here will take me as an insane but when I care about it? Did I? No! Allah I know something better is hived away in near future but then why we pray and ask things from you if you are going to provide things in a better way, in its best shape? Why you said in Al- Quran that you give to those who ask you to? I don't know if my talks make sense to anyone but I know it will to you I am sure as you are my creator. If my mum understands me so well so does my dad then I am dead sure YOU the one who love me more then 70 mothers surely understands me far better then I understand myself. Help me! I know you are around somewhere near me but still I need you. I know things will go by and then I will be on a track towards success but this is hurting me. I know people who are consoling me are resource of you only but this way its hurting even more. Sometime I feel like drowning myself somewhere but then I remember how difficult it was for me to recover from it last time.

Waiting for an answer!

Love you Allah ..

And I wiped my tears off and tear the page from the diary and it flit away before I could grab it .. I smiled Allah definitely was watching me and this wind took my letter to him.. =) ..

TO BE CONTINUED..

- illusiOn ~

Sorrow VS Hope..

Well guys this all happened yesterday when me IllusiOn~ and Vinay aka LEO decided to track me out of sorrows by hope ..

Its a joint venture of our's hope to see your replies..

SORROW VS HOPE !

I am tired of these emotions,
This crowd on exit gate of my heart,
As only few wants to enter,
And so many are there to leave,

Emotions play with your heart,
They aren't meant forever to stay,
Let go of them, when they want to go,
And new joyous ones will find their way.

Way is what I am searching for,
And even cant find a escape,
Though I want to fight but,
I dont have a reson to stay,

Leave not the hope of escape,
They can't hold you captive forever,
Fight them, because you want to,
No reason could be better ever,

I feel the loneliness with in me,
deeper then ever it was before,
Tell me... Oh my friend!
When to attach with whom to fight?

If you are lonely, come to me,
From its depths I shall pull you through,
Your fight is with yourself, you can't lose,
Your words aren't an illusion, your heart is true,

My heart is not answering,
Its quite like never before,
I feel no shame as I have to accept,
Yes i am a looser and have no shame,

Knock with persistence, not giving up,
It is your heart, it will answer soon,
How can you tell you are a loser?
In this world of stars, you are the moon.

Moon is alone,
and stars make it more,
I need to refresh,
but how could I,

how can the moon be lonely?
it has many stars to make it smile,
think of joy not the unseen sorrows,
that which kept you going all this while,

Sorrows are what I can see,
As stars are making moon no more happy,
Who says I dont want to be,
Its just I am unable too,

Into my eyes, stare you my friend,
More than any mirror, I can reflect your heart,
I won't let you give up, it's not who I am,
Perhaps, all you need friend is a new start!

New start, is all I need,
But where to start,
and how to start,
is my question and have no answer,

You have written so much now,
So passionate, from your heart so true,
You did not think that you could,
Surely, this could be that start so new,

I today promise will restart,
but give me some time ,
stand closer to me and hold me tight
I may fell down i may go mad

Keep hope, don't see the dark ahead,
Light will beckon you soon my friend,
I am not going anywhere, will be by your side,
Will catch you when you fall friend.

I won't let you go mad with sorrow,
I will give you a bouquet of smiles,
Take the time, but do not give up hope,
Remember the good joyous times

Sure I will and dont you worry,
when friend like you is there with me,
Why I have to go mad why to fall,
So here I smile with a glee

Then use this as the start of a new life,
Let go off all the sorrow, all the strife,
Write this as an Illusion, but that is true,
Am now waiting, to hear that words a new.

Lets together we stand
lets together we move
hold my hand and her we go
With a new glow and new life

Onward Insi, destiny calls,
I will be by your side, always,
A friend to push you forward,
To find you when you have lost your way.

So here I thank you Vinay!
you helped me and you pushed me
Again towards the life,
towards illusion, towards yourself and towards WL

-illusiOn~